Being in the ughiness

Beginning of this week I read an article about the current state of mind many of us are in and at the same time have no clue about it.
Languishing, I myself had never heard that word before and felt so incredibly seen when I learnt what it meant.

It has a couple different notions to it for me. The word that pops into mind when I read about it was: Ugh.
I use that word all the time. Im feeling a little ugh, this was a little ugh, I don’t know it’s all just ugh. I am not feeling sad or depressed, it’s like I am low without really knowing the reason, and all I know is that I am not feeling thrilled or excited.

Being very into putting words to the felt sense of what I am experiencing, languishing feels , for me, like a really long and slow ride on one of those walking tracks in the airport to get you to the gate faster. It’s all flat, you are ready to leave and get somewhere but it takes forever and once you get there you still have a long way to go before you reach your destination.

So what I am going to do this mental health awareness month is to be with it, put words to it and allow for this to be an ugh time, get myself through it and rest it the knowing that there will be another day eventually that won’t feel ugh, where the tug of excitement will outrun the other feeling and just thinking about that makes me a little less ughy.